It is hard for me to fully trust people to the point I can really open up to them. It seems like every time I think I find a person to open up to they turn around and use what I have told them to use it against me without caring what they are truly doing to me. Am I doomed to never finding a person I can fully trust without them using what I have told them against me? Am I going to be forced to always be hurting? Because there isn't any more room in me to deal with the pain. I'm on the edge of loosing it everyday and people who I should be able to trust start off the day stressing me out and by the end of the day I'm looking for someone that I can at least talk to in order to release the stress of the day without making them run away.

32 years of the same crap happening on my birthday and every other day of my life and people still think that Bible thumping at me and saying be positive will change 32 years of torture called my life. Wake up and smell the Bull Shit your spewing at me because after 32 years of the same shit happening day in and day out it is obvious nothing is going to change for me all that can change is to stop hiding the fact it been happening. All it would take is them spending 1 day in my shoes and they would be wondering why I haven't gone postal yet. I don't need faux friends or faux advice in my life because action always speak louder than words and people seem to be blind to actions nowadays and still fall for the words. There is no such thing as a sliver lining so stop trying to find one. Everyone is out for themselves and they don't care who they hurt to get ahead in life which means Nice Guys never have a chance and Assholes get everything.